Tarene's Xanga

Yo-ness

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 22:11:27 GMT

Sooo... 'sup? How is everyone? I'm cool, I guess... aside from xanga being evil. --; They changed waaaaay too many things AND THEY WONT TAKE MY PICTURE!! >.< so I have to put the dancing guy in my album, if it'll let me.

OK, so I totally have nothing to say.... But. I love ya'll and all... so... ya ..... Just wanted to update... see if I still existed....

'Ello!! ^-^

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 18:15:52 GMT

Hiii!! How was everyone's Independence day? Hope it went by fine. ^-^ Mine was great! Mom's bf, Stu, took his daughter and I to Charleston to watch fireworks. First we ate pizze at Mellow Mushroom, Yuuuuuummeh. And then we went to get icecream from... Cold Stone...? Eitherway, Cait got cheesecake flavored and I got... gummy. XD Sour-apple Gummi; isn't that weird? Cait swore the thing was growing back after I ate a bit cuz it was all gooey n stuff. XD Anyway, after the icecream we walked around and got a quick bite of sushi before goin' ta see the fireworks. They were AWESOME, btw. Soooo.... yeah... The hotel-thingy was beautiful. The elevator made me kinda sickish though... XD Hmmmm.... sooooo.... Yeah. XD

How'd ya'll's day go?

Yes, I'm trying to update more.

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 05:03:14 GMT

soooo.... Yeah... Sorry about the whole "being depressed" things... I guess they must've really peeved off some people. But I wont delete them. So dun ask. ;>>

Anyway, on some good notes. ^-^ I just recently heard from one of my Quizilla buddies. She's fun, we started like a little RP in one of our emails. I got my permit!! But... I'm deathly afraid of crashing and stuff. XD I'm having a hard time paying attention to anything but the yellow line. I even got the meters confused and went like 60 mph when I thought the thing said 20. XD Hmmmm.. what else to talk about.. OH!! I made a new buddy, thanks to one of my closest friends, Nikki!! ^-^ He's cool to talk to and funny. Lol. He's a Zelda addict, just like us!

I've drawn quite a lot... lookit at my page on DA!!! http://hione.deviantart.com/ at least I think that's the link. XD 'Tis my art... (Rolls around.) My gosh, I am soooo bored.

I've been much more afraid of death recently. And there's a weird feelin' in my side. But, w'ever. It could just be gass or something. I mean, we ate like.. 7 rolls worth of sushi and got huge ice cream things. Yups...

I've also been stayin' up longer. o.O 'til like... 3 or 4 a.m.!!! Yes... I'm weird. And of course, people get onto me about it. XD

Asano: Meh, who cares?
Trojo:WE do. (Pokes Asano in the eye.) Such a mean jerk.
Jin: I... want fudge. XD
Touya: No. Remember what happened last time...?
Chu: Sooo, he was a little hyper! I don't see the problem with it!! (Sips some sake.)
Hione: Of course YOU wouldn't. --;
Hiei: I hate you all...
Sesshomaru: (Nods.) All of them.
Hiei: You too. --. --.
Sess:...... I hate you.
Hione: Awww!! He's so cute when he hates!! <3 <3 <3
Hiei n Sess: Me or him?
Hione: Duuuuh!! Sesshy-Baby!! <3 (Snuggles against the said demon.)
Sess: --;
Jin: Awwwwwww!!! <3 <3
Ayame: I swear, Hiei!! You need a new cloak! One... brighter! <3
Hiei: TOUCH ME YOU DIE!!!! >m< (bucktooth face?!?! XD )
Karasu: (Goes up to Kurama who's calmly reading in a chair n hugs him 'round the neck.) Hmmmmm.... so beautiful... (Glares over at Hiei.) You lucky rat.
Hiei: GET THE HECK AWAY FROM HIM!!! >.< (Tackles Karasu.)
Hione: .... Uhm.... OK... BYE EVERYONE!! ^-^

'Sup?

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 02:06:52 GMT

.....Anyway. I figure I may as well make another post... soooooo..... God. I dunno what to talk about. OH! I tried for my Permit Friday. And failed. Saw it commin'. Either way. Mom's makin' me try again tomorow. Hope I pass this time... it was so embarassing... -sigh- But whatever.

.....On a lighter note... I will be an 11th grader this year! Isn't that fun? I think I've got like.. three art-related classes planned n stuff. I've thought a lot about my stories, I just can't bring myself to write. I can't pay attention long enough to read anymore, so that also sucks.

.....I constantly find myself thinking that people get annoyed at me when I say anything and I'm just this worthless loser that is lazy, ugly and stupid. People younger than me know more than I do and when they talk, I can't follow and I feel so useless at a conversation. It seems like people get mad at me out of the blue and makes me feel like I shouldn't even try at friends. I get mad at myself for thinking things like, "I deserve that" or, "How could they be so selfish", or "I can't stand when they talk". People I meet over the net fall in love with me instantly, but they don't have a clue what's going on in my mind... Sure, my words can be beautiful, but who says my thoughts are? I don't deserve anything I get yet I think I deserve more and it makes me seem like some horrible monster... I'm afraid of getting attatched to someone so I end my relationships before they leave me... or I don't even start them to keep the ones that like me around. I'm tired of saying "I". I can't stand hating being around my friends, yet when I take time from them I go insane... I get mad easily and do whatever people ask me to... It's such a pain... I wish it would stop... but when I think that I get so scared... Why do people like me? Why can't I just appreciate everything..? A few years ago I would've killed myself just to feel love... now that I've felt it and lost it I feel so alone and I can't trust anyone... why should I? They'll leave me... couples always break up... It will never last, no matter how much I want it to. 'Sides; there's not a single guy that I ACTUALLY meet that I can bring myself to liking... I'm too scared of actually touching them only ot have them pull away...

.....I still want to kill my father, too. Everyone else at least got to see their father's faces and memorize them before they wrote you off as a child they hate... Not even a damn birthday card... do you guys know how lucky you are...? I spent my childhood praying to have a dad that mom and I could go places with, but instead I got all of her looser boyfriends and pervy neighbors that look at me funny. You guys are so damn lucky, you don't even realize....

-Sigh- Anyway. I love ya'll. Just ignore this. And don't get bitchy at me. It'll just cause me to wright more. KK?

LATERS!!! <3 <3 <3

Joyous...

Thu, 31 May 2007 01:21:36 GMT

Summer, summer, summer... the time for sluts to screw guys in the ocean and give out free blow-jobs at the movies before getting caught and fake-crying to their money-lovin' parents.... Yeah, I'm bitchy. Summer for me means, issolation, more time for me to get bitchy and cold like usual to go back to school and be hated by people I don't and do know. Fun. Don't ask why, but I feel like everytime I talk people hate me. I'm in that state, yet again. where I feel like no one really likes me, they just do it. They don't admire me, they just do it. I'm not pretty, not funny, obviously, I suck at games, I suck at singing, family looks at me like I'm just some.... thing. People ignore me... Toby. Yeah, you. --; Haven't talked since fucking October, dammit! But whatever. I don't care. And I'm honestly still pissed at Craig. I know full-damn-well he could possibly see this, but seeming as he's been ignoring xanga, and me, I don't think he'll really give a flyin' rat's ass. Yes, like I said I still hate him... I liked Poetry, and so did he, so now I hate it. I was interested in furs, so was he, I hate it as well. I used to actually cry at peoples problems when they came to me, like I did for him... but what's the point? When I cry, they don't give a fuck and just go on with their lives; no much as a fucking "Thank you." Thanks guys. Really. next time, I'll just tell the bastards to suck it up and be gay, ditching me. That'll really work. Wonderful. And what the hell is the problem with you damn gay guys anyway? No offense, but so far none of you have left a good fucking impression. Craig, ha, we know you cuz I wont shut up. Toby, I be nice and sweet and try to fucking consol you but you just act like a selfish dick, and then there's that other prick who's name I can't even remember cuz I'm so pissed at him. Fuck. You. All. There. I said it. Thanks for fucking up my better judgement and pissing me off so much to where I'm a stupid little bitch that can't trust love. Go take a fucking pole up the ass... I'm sick of this. I'm sick of all of you, I'm sick of me, I'm sick of everything. I don't care anymore. Don't ask me to, you'll just get bitched at. Hell, I CAN'T cry for you anymore. It used to be so easy... Whatever. God, I'm tired.... (Curls up.) I wish I was a still-birth... I wouldn't have to deal with this crap... what's the point of living if there's people like you...? Honestly...

Don't worry, I do realize I have some really kind friends who don't like to hurt me... and actually do love me. It's just... hard to notice amungst the bad.... I'm sorry...

And don't fuss. This isn't a suicide note. I'm... too much of a coward to do it.... no matter how much I want to...

Grawr.

Fri, 13 Apr 2007 23:39:27 GMT

How is everyone? Sorry I havent updated. I've been busy with Deviant Art n no one really posts a lot here anyway. ^^" Sooooooooooo....... Whaddup?

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........ That's cool, I guess. (Rolls around.) Anyway.. Comment, OK? Lets all get talkin' again!

OMG!!!

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 00:22:11 GMT

Heeeeeeeey!!!!! Wow, it's been so long since my last post... I guess there's just nothing much to talk about... I'm sorry. But... guess what... MY CUZZY CUZ DOWNLOADED THE LINKIN PARK CDs FOR ME!! <3 Isn't that sweet? Soo... how have you all been? ^^" School's been OK, I guess. I hope I passed... OMG, that would so suck if I failed... I knew a lot on the test... PLEASE say I passed!! ; . ; If I didn't pass, then I'm gonna make myself take two months off the computer. TToTT I wouldn't deserve the time anyway... Maybe then I can do more work without being distracted... Yeah... Sides, only about three people talk to me over the net anymore. Lol. Isn't that sad? -Siiiigh- The girl I want to talk to most doesn't seem to want to talk to me anytime soon. I don't mind.. I understand. I mean, when I wanted Craig so bad, I'd wake up in the night and watch TV for hours not even paying attention to the show and instead hated that I couldn't actually see him and his friends. ^^" Shug' too. Lol. I'm just weird that way. Ooooh, NUMB!!! I love this song! <3 "Every step that I take, is another mistake to yooooouuuuu!" XD Oh chill, ya'll love my stupidness. DUDE!! One SURE way to get anime fans to love a song, is get them to watch an awesome AMV (Anime Music Video) with a song they will most likely hate. They'll love it after that. I swear. XD It happened to me. ^^"

WELL!! Anyway, my loves. I shall leave you alone. Hmmm.... Oh crud.. I still have to read, "To Kill a Mockingbird" XD.

YAY!! "Crawling!!" <3 Love meeeee!! <3

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 20:52:37 GMT

HAHAHAHAHA!!! TAKE THAT YAMI!!!!! XD I know, I'm insane... Hmm... me likey this pic... yummeh. Lol

PICCIES!!! MUAHAHAHAHA!!!

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 18:24:34 GMT

YAAAAAAAY!!!! Seto and Joey!! The hotness!!! Here's more hotness!!!

Now here comes da cuteness!!!!!!!

(OK, Don't fuss at me!!!!! It's not showin' nuthin'... and it's cute.... Don't hate me!! ; . ; )

OK!!! That's it!! ^-^ Luuuuv ya'll!!!

Luv me tooooo!!! And don't be mad about that piccy! I loved their expressions. So rah! ;>>

^^"

Funneh.

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 15:36:00 GMT

OK, Caitlin and I biked to Hardees to get breakfast. We couldn't really carry the food back to the park, so we just dropped next to the little creek under a tree. When we started eating I pointed to a really fluffy kittypillar squirming down the tree at her and she used a stick to flick it to the ground. It looked kinda creepy to I investigated on it. when you poke it with a stick it curls up like a rolly-poley! It was so cute!! And it had little humps on its back that reminded me of Bowser's hair. Soooo, since I didn't know what it was, I called it "Bowseer-Pillar"!

Come to find out it's actually called a Puss Caterpillar. Which is worse than Bowser-Pillar. XD

Here's what he looked like! <3

ISN'T IT CUUUUUTE?!?!?!?!? <3

Say yes or die. --; He was adorable when I poked him. Lol